Doubting You

With you I always second guess myself 
Am I important to you, Do you love me, 
Perhap I was once, just not anymore
My phone is silent and eyes run rivers 
Was I never a priority to you, not even in the beginning
Did you love me before and just lost feelings
Like a beggar for affection, kiss, attention
Nothing, you give me nothing..
You lead me on that you've changed for a day or two
Then back again we go, you win, I lose, again and again
Back again we go, like a dance without an end
I want to you to love me or free me
My hearts just not strong enough, not anymore 
Lost my hope for your affection long ago
I can’t understand why I’m still here, waiting