Drink me a dream...

As my holy spirit seeks the weeping sky, I'm sailing until it runs dry
I look to the heavens to see if I can find the presence that'll keep me alive 
As my oars snap like branches from my family tree
Pouring myself another one while I'm down on my knees

I've tore people who had good intentions
I've lived a lie and kept on pretending 
I've put a different smile on and kept on hating
I've lived past memories instead of creating

Shedding tears that are filled with self control and drowning my sight
Empty words that killed my own and I knew it wasn't right 
Burning images of what I had and what I've got now as the ashes lay on the ground 
Belief in what I feel and what is real, now acceptance is the higher power that I've found

My saving grace is my beating heart for my children and one day the holding of their hand
My cravings will tear me apart for my weakness will always be there inside my mind
I'm strong enough, that I do know and determination is lying within my soul
I will strive. I will conquer. I will cry but yet I will live dreams of my own
I will create dreams of our own
WE will live dreams...xx