Embarrassed

I look at all these popular people, and i feel embarrassed.

I wake up every morning to get ready
I look into the mirror to see myself
I think to myself, “i wanna be like other people”
Today is going to be the day, i won’t embarrass myself

I’m insecure on how I look,
So I put on makeup.
Yet, the only kind of makeup I have,
Is mascara and eyeshadow.
So I put that on to make myself feel semi-pretty.

I start to get dressed.
Another thing I’m insecure about,
Is my body.
So I put on sweats and a baggy sweatshirt,
Just like what I wear,
everyday.

I brush my teeth about 5 times a day.
My smile is another thing i’m insecure about.
I try and try to make them whiter,
Just like everyone else,
And I beg my mom for braces,
But her answer is, “we just don’t have the money”

Since I can’t get braces,
I don’t smile,
Or talk.
I’m very anti-social,
Which leads me into not very many friends.

I get to school,
I see everyone in a group
huddled around each other,
Smiling,
Having the best time of their life.

Then there’s me.
Alone in the corner,
Listening to my music
And talking to no one.

I don’t have very many friends.
Probably because I don’t talk.
i find it hard for myself to make friends,
but i have a few that stick by myside,
sometimes.

i think i push people away by of my personality.
i’m not like others,
I’m a nerd,
I get straight A’s,
i don’t have enough friends for anyone to like me,
and i don’t do sports so i’m not fit.

why am i not good enough?
what can i do to become good enough?

you don’t need to wear makeup to look beautiful,
or to wear certain clothes,
have a perfect smile,
or you think you don’t have “enough friends”
Just be yourself.

If people don’t try to be your friend,
They’re missing out
On a great,
Beautiful person.