Emotions like Onions

How do I feel about this? I do not know...
 Am I happy, sad or just overwhelmed with sorrow
 I'm emotionally confused
 I feel pathetic , bland or am I just being obtuse ?

 Like an onion I'm expressing different layers of emotions
 Sometimes I emerge with this bold protective shell
 But truly on the inside I'm lost, sad sometimes even dead

 Lush and confident on the outside
 Sad and full of regret on the inside
 My actions portrayed in a manner of discrete
 Peel my layers an image would be found, one that is obsolete

 Like onions my real emotions remains disguise
 What I'm truly feeling will never be expressed
 It would be the last layer of my emotional appearance
 Wedged underneath until the breakthrough of emotional declarance