Emotions like Onions

How do I feel about this? I do not know... Am I happy, sad or just overwhelmed with sorrow I'm emotionally confused I feel pathetic , bland or am I just being obtuse ? Like an onion I'm expressing different layers of emotions Sometimes I emerge with this bold protective shell But truly on the inside I'm lost, sad sometimes even dead Lush and confident on the outside Sad and full of regret on the inside My actions portrayed in a manner of discrete Peel my layers an image would be found, one that is obsolete Like onions my real emotions remains disguise What I'm truly feeling will never be expressed It would be the last layer of my emotional appearance Wedged underneath until the breakthrough of emotional declarance