Empty room

I've been drowning in my thoughts, no life vest, demons in my head they give me no rest.
Wake up just to fade again, voices in my head tell me there my only friend.
Another pill just to fake pretend, I don't feel love I just play the fence. I don't feel life, I just feel the end.
Every mirror showing me a ghost, every hug feel colder then most.
Every "im fine" is a silent cry, every heart beat feels like a lie.
Use to Love the crowds, now I fear the noise, screaming more and more I lose my voice.
Memories I wish I could erase, missing friends in my brain space, I put myself in a quiet place looking for hope but it left no trace.
They say I'm blessed  but I feel cursed, all this hurt writting just makes it feel worse.
Still got text messages from those who left, still got tears I haven't cried yet.
The rooms to quiet but my head to loud, thoughts to heavy I can't get out.
Everytime I sink I drown in doubt, if I asked for help would they hear me now.
Im tired of faking the truth, I died along time ago in this empty room.