Empty Space

Somewhere inside of me

There’s an empty space.

You might not notice it

When you look in my face,

But best believe

It's in there some place.

At age thirty-three

I still cannot figure out

What the heck is wrong with me.

There are some people that I have caused

Hurt, pain, emptiness, and grief

But in the end

It is I who is without relief.

For some strange reason

There is an empty space

Inside of me.

There’s something missing, something needed

There is something that remains undefeated.

I cannot for the life of me

Figure out how to beat it.

Whatever that something is

It won’t let me love anyone outside my kids.

It won’t allow me to love, smile, be happy

Or get spiritually relieved.

But allows me to feel down, sad,

Empty, crappy,

& always deceived.

There is an emptiness inside of me.

It does not grow. It only hides,

Letting only me know where it resides.

When I notice it even I want to up

and hide.

I notice now and always have

That my life never moves at a fast pace.

Just fast enough for me to see

That there’s an EmpTy SpACE

Inside of ME…