Encompassed Effigy

Minding the transparency of life and all its cultivation, I respect the admiration of advantage ,even when eyes seem wide shut, as what is adhered to be, I grasp it even if it means leaving what It appears to be taking me to my level of utopia ,as definitive lines blur in a race of what standards?? Conceiveability, comfortability, Carnality in my failure, one return of compassion, empathy is thwarted due to the past in which I never subsided or caused the detriment of subconscious scorn .Still I carry on ....inside an inward myriad of value over voice ,atrocity over choice for it was categorized as nothing but played up in virtue and or rules in opposition. Not as if it would change,  nor be real in itself ,for I am realizing how close I am to it and the fact that I am berating everything I know to be true for my own happiness .