End of a 20 year era

14/10/2020
End of a 20 year era

It's the End of a 20 year era,
And Into the beginning of a new one.
 I can feel the rebirth in me,
As the 2nd real battle with my cancer draws near.
I can hear the beating of each of my Cancers war drums,
For a second battle for my Cancer to flee.
In my mind,
My plans couldn’t be more clear.
I’ve to use strengths,
To man,
 Unbeknown.
I'm lucky that I’ve found my best friend again in T,
Spending time at hers and also my home.
And for new pain killing nice feelings to appear.
I love spending time with her again.
 As this ‘chick’ is laid back and funny to the bone.
It would be so hard without My kids,
Let alone T,
my loving family and friends.
To receive news today,
That it’s my old cancer that has reappeared.
In this,
It's 20th year?
Time for me to focus again and on my will power I’ll hone.
I’ll knock it flying out of the park into infinity and beyond,
Even though i know not to play with it,
As lung cancer is a name that’s feared.
To me? 
I’ve been living with a smile,
Hiding a billion tears,
Not just this time,
As I said,
Also the last 20 years.
I always knew this day would come,
Inevitable really.
But is the 1st time I’ve started to have my own fears.
I’ve always feared what I would leave behind,
The cause of mourning and with it,
Torrents of tears in arrears.

My 3 balls of energy,
Loved ones and friends,
Just see this as a new beginning, 
Nowhere near the end.
Even though accepted,
I want to see further,
than just the next bend.
So i will.
I’ll power through and beat it,
Preparing myself,
To fully defend.
Even if I have to go private,
For extra time with my boys,
Then I would handsomely spend.
Pity I’m not a computer,
As all I would need to do is,
Simply press delete or send!