Ending My Pain

Fighting all the urges of suicide
Always Hurting myself so that I can smile
Tired of seeing all the scars I have inflicted upon myself
Just waiting for the day She realizes that she made me truly smile
With every breath she takes is a moment my heart skips
Just knowing that she Was mine to be
Mine to love…
Realizing I threw away what I needed most
Being forced to make a decision..
The decision will sever my life
I’ll lose everything I ever had..
This noose will help me along
Draping it around my neck as I sit upon the porch railing
Staring down as I debate my own fate
Knowing everyone will be happy soon after I am Gone
Waiting for the moment that someone realizes all the pain I suffered.
Every memory that haunts me as the days pass by
All the pain I suffered to bring me to this breaking point...