Acceptance

I've had enough of my mental illness, it continuously brings me down, it leaves me lost in my own town. I hate to feel defeat makes me wonder if ill ever get back up on my feet. I reviewed as much information as I could about the medications but honestly id rather take up some meditation. Sometimes the meds work and I get better and other times it leaves me writing my suicide letter. Please stop blaming me for my life being a mess and just understand the older I get the more it will progress. Though life is complicated I still feel blessed even through life's little tests.