Excess Baggage

One word to stop these tears from falling
One word remains unspoken
Creating a river of tears filled with unspoken sentiments
And untouched caresses
Realization of your disregard came so very late
But not too late
Have those degrading stares 
Directed at me always been there
Maybe a more recent development
My guilt has blinded me from much I fear
But these eyes are open inescapably now
I play the fool no longer
Mayhap it was your own guilt that has kept you near
I release you from your distorted sense of obligation
This failure is mine to learn from
Another mark upon the chalkboard
There are no regrets for beauty can be found in our history
But history it is
Just as there is no skipping ahead
There are no answers to be found in chapters already read
Time will take this rage from around my heart
​​​​​​​And perhaps the ability to unclench my fists
You were all that I had the only one I could trust in a world turned upside down how dare you fail so spectacularly and only you could be so audacious to then lay all the blame at my feet
Oh my
My temper as always got the better of me
I wish you well on whatever path it is that you choose
And I'll pretend you feel the same for me
I know the burden was too much for you to bear
Please forgive my presumptuousness thinking you would help me 
For a little while
Carry this enormous amount of excess baggage
Did you forget I was carrying yours as well
How am I just now realizing
The weight has always stayed the same