Existing But Not Living

I exist
but
I have stopped 
Living

I dream
Yet
There
Is no
Hope

I pray
Though
The
Words
Seem
To 
Go
No where

Empty
Promises
Optimism 
Gone
Array

Just an
over 
Imaginative
Boy
Persuading 
His
Younger
Sister
That there
Is treasure
Underneath
The neighbor's 
rose garden

46 years later
And many whippings 
from my folks

I still cannot help
To believe
That 
Somewhere 
There must
Be treasure
Or 
Lucky
Numbers
On the 
Lottery tickets
I POSSESS