eyes don't see

eyes don't see through mine to my soul
deep,deep in another pain filled existence 
strange pieces of feelings wishing to belong
a fire waiting to be extinguished 
so far from the crowd i wander seeking a lonely path
past of pain and hurt and self-loathe
why? i ask   why do i fear?
how can i conquer my troubled soul?
but the crowd keeps me there
too many questions ,not enough answers
the eyes don't see my rotting soul
release i need ,on the right shoulder to rest
tired of being someone else's shoulder
soothe the pain of others faults
who am i?  why am i in this hidden existence 
a part of me,deep in myself wants to stay safe and untouched
keep the fear at bay,hoping it won't erupt into something else
keep the silence,carry on
live the nightmare when it comes 
why cant the eyes see ,what i feel ?