false pretensions

Profound darkness surrounding me feelings of uncertainty from every angle this life is tangled twist and turns one way reap rewards other path full of burns
 There is a place in the heart that will never be filled, a hole that keeps growing as the experiences unfold Brick by brick layer upon layer of solid denial caused by rejection self-pity or self-proclaimed stress lost in the raging sea of nothingness blinded by beliefs from another's description, Tough lifes encryption trying to follow the path of righteousness to easy to fall in despair the darkness grows eerie seems no escape pessimistic thoughts enter my mind degrading my self-worth detoured from birth from day one the journey began never able to stay still long enough to develop a skill from place to place always on the go no true friends no true soul seen first hand the bad i tried to live for the good but still get confused of what I understood when I was younger or was it something I made up in my mind to block out what was true echos of the past make me wanna relapse but my new found optimism keeps my will strong sometimes it takes sacrifices to get where you wanna go