Faults

Rape
One no
Is all that it takes
​So why is it
My fault
When I said no
Why is it my fault
When I asked you politely to go
Why is it my fault 
That you 
Hadn't "Done things in months"
Why is it my fault
Can you tell me that?

I told you I couldn't
That it would kill me inside
And now?
I sit awake still
Crying at night
I hold my breath 
Whenever You come near
I can't breathe
Because I can still taste the fear

Its not your fault I have a nice ass?
Its not you fault
That I'm a piece of trash?
Its not your fault
That I was asking for it?
Its my fault because I know what that shirt does to you,
but I still wore it?
Its not your fault
That you're bigger and stronger than me?
Its not your fault
That I struggle to breathe?
Its not rape...
​​​​​​because I liked it?
When I started crying
When I pushed you away
I didn't want it
But it still isn't rape?
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You're right
It wasn't your fault
It was mine
For trusting you
The way that I did
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