Feeling Alone Today

It sucks to be lonley but it's not worth the pain.
I'd rather lay in an empty bed than be stuck in the rain.
I'm insane for thinking that these thoughts can be controlled.
I just always have the passion in my heart from which you hold.
I feel so cold in this dark mind that I have.
Knowing I can never love for the trust I've never had.
It kills me deep within for theres a void that must be filled.
Burning so hot that only tips on my back will chill.
I'm so sad as I lay wandering through the dusty maze.
Trying to push through this thick and misty haze.
I just want that special someone who will always be my light.
For I know it is scary in this dark alone and easy to get fright.
Is it enough to show you my tears that I cherish?
Where if anyone sees them dripping off my face I feel I will perish.
As many do my pride is like the lions.
Strong yet so vulnerable to any dependence and defiance.
Have you ever seen the cow jump over the moon?
How he gets so high to conquer his goal yet he falls down way too soon.
I feel this way almost every day feeling there is no end.
Just wishing that there was someone to hold and peace fill up my head.
But I must prevail to keep my eyes looking at the stars.
Cause unlike the moon the fall's not soon, for they are so very very far.