Feelings

Mama gotta have this surgery. 
Deep down its hurting me. 
Pills ain't helping neither is the weed. 
I gotta stay strong cause that's what she need.  
My family looking up to me cause I'm the oldest. 
Only if they knew my heart was the coldest.
I think about the worst and anxiety is through the roof. 
But my mama strong I'm the living proof. 
Fuck cancer it can kiss my ass. 
I just want it in the past. 
To be forgotten and never brought back up. 
But even though my feelings hurt my mom is tough.
She gonna be a cancer survivor.
Who will never give up.