Finally

I’ve been seeking for years this light and the truth.
Oh why has it escaped me; even all through my youth?
As things go bad, I would call upon His name.
Less than a month, I was right back the same.
Countless times I thought I was doing what's right.
My own hearts lust would just  block out the light.
At times I could see blessings, and  a glimpse of the truth.
The devil in charge allowed only a little to get through.
Just as I think my path is straight, and looks clear.
The dreaded 180, as if I were looking in a mirror.
When finally it comes time for the darkness to leave.
You must let go of selfish desires and beleifs.
I burst out with happiness, I just can’t contain.
Finally it happens, I am free of this pain.
No longer in control of even my own tears.
Pour out like a faucet, building pressure for years.
Finally the great kingdom of Heaven is revealed.
By the grace of God even I can get in.
Once I decided in this life to give up control.
Through the power in Christ, I’ve  won my soul.
No longer worry about tomorrow, for my salvation is real.
By the blood of Jesus Christ, I am cleansed, and I'm healed.
Truly, He is the happiness I prayed for so strong.
Lord why did I fight this so hard for so long?
There are miracles in Jesus, He’s at it again.
Like a switch He filpped me and the light was let in. 
Great storms all around me, I don’t want to loose. 
Jesus appears, He says “It’s time you choose.”
A peace comes over me, exactly right then.
Finally through Jesus no matter what happens, I win.