Finding The Will To Survive...

Where to start?
I'm openly willing by bracing my heart 
Where to end?
I frantically make a perfect concoction for it to blend 

Enough of the raging thoughts that scatter my mind 
My mixed emotions are enough how it is combined
Finding myself motionless as it haunts my soul 
However this wasn't intended to be my main goal

The moon forever the crescendo of the night 
Nevertheless the sun remains perilously bright
Free spirited like a raven 
My trace of thoughts are my personal haven

Supernatural and paranormal
It all sounds so formal 
What's real? What's fake?
Is it our own thoughts and visions that erupt everything into one big quake?

Winds that can sweep us off our feet
Just one car crash that can lead me to one big defeat 
Torrential gloomy rains that can leave me on edge 
Just one strike... can drive me to jump from a high ledge

My imaginary world that has become my saviour 
Has helped me guide through a positive behaviour 
The things I hold close to my heart has been my light 
Tremendously helped me conquered my mental and emotional fights

To whom this many concern you say? 
To nobody I reply... I'm just finding a reason to live and still love each and every single day 
I struggle to speak through words 
So I write it down as it's the only way to be heard.