First Kiss (on the lips)

My girlfriend just kissed me
it was quite chaste.
All I remember feeling was
braced.

Then she kissed me again
and when she pulled away
I hid my face in my hands
you know, like always. 

Now, here I sit,
eyes tired at midnight,
questioning and wondering
if it felt right.

It didn't feel wrong,
at least I don't think
but did it fee good?
My heart starts to sink.

I try to assure:
'I liked the nose-kiss'
but that just isn't enough,
is it

Not for the kind of love
you want and deserve
aak, none of this writing
had eased my concerns..

I'm still quite confused,
as I have been and will be,
anxious 'bout my future and expectations.
I just don't want to be disappointing.​​​