Executive Dysfunction

“Easy” they say, 
       well
 X-ray my brain,
       cuz it’s not the same.
Expections, may be
       dragging me down, I’m
Crawling, not walking
       (but not in my brain).
Un-concerned; uncaring I seem
       inside of me
              I’m ((S-C-R-E-A-M-I-N-G)),
TRYING,
I’m outright CRYING
       how can you not see?
              (my tears are more mobile than me!)
Verbs are failing:
       (moving talking 
              surviving)
Empty are my eyes and limbs

Dad
       is mad
              that
I’m
Sad.
Fuck him.
       fuck this
             fucking thing
Understanding
Never
Comes
To
Illnesses inside
Of
Needers (Non-Neurotypicals)