Flashbacks

I thought I was going to lose my brother. Instantly my sisters death struck my thoughts. I know I somewhat handled it better than most. But I know for a fact if I lost my brother I would break down. Just the fear of him not being around was talking control of me. My sisters death already did its toll on my hopes for happiness. Another close loss like that would kill me. I was young when she died so I think that helped me just because I didn't have the thought process I have now. Now I would feel hopeless, more than I already do. My memories are not good for me. I only remember the pain.