Flying Solo

The decision to fly solo doesn't come lightly
Let them in, it became real..
We'll that's what they had me believe.
That it was us against the world.
As my defensive walls surround them.
But the ppl closest have the opportunity to burn the deepest.
Them and God was all that I had.
Now its just back to God and me.
People are just to much to bare.
But as a moth to a flame
Fatal attraction to light and warmth,
Burns to ashes. By the one thing that seemed to promise relief
What follows is worse..
The grief
The look on the faces..
The innocens in there eyes.
The thought that run down there cheeks
Echoing... question marks...
They didn't do anything wrong but I push away...
I try to turn a blind eye but I still care about them...
Feel I can't be near u but if sumone had to pull u into a dark ally
Id fight for u... take the bullitt for you... donate my heart if u needed it...
I'd ly down my life, if it meant saving yours...
Us.. still just another unopened door...
But I already locked it and threw away key..
All because of what could be.
I know its unfair...
Ur paying for the scare others have left on me
Trust me... it isant easy.
The thought of loosing you. Its got me thinking.
Debating.. do I really want to fly solo?