My New Years.

Same thing as last year.
I'm here.
And the person I hold dear.
Is not anywhere near here.
New years supposed to be a chance for new beginnings.
But the next chapter starts the same as the last did.
With me here.
And you "there".
Wherever "there" is for you this year.
Is this how its gonna be forever?
Is this how the rest of our lives play out?
If I choose to marry you; our lives will consist of you there, and me here.
Alone.
But together.
Me and you.
Forever.
I'm not sure.
Our geniuses to revelations can't have one sided conversations.
Comparing notes with tomorrows past but their still the same moment.
We're tainted.
Faithed to be separated on the days I really need you.
New years hasn't hit here yet.
But there's still no sign of you.
So I'm gonna listen to jazzy blues, humming soft tunes that remind me of you!
I'm gonna stay consistent in my waiting for you.
Because you promised me you'll try.
Your only human, a human far from home who's hearts being torn.
I may not win the tug of war this year or the next, but someday.
Someday ill find a way to bring your heart back together.
You came to my city with only your mother and your brother.
Your home town changes more and more into others.
But home is where the heart is. One day I hope to hold it.
Home.
Your heart.
But for now.
I'll be patient in your absence.
Happily imaging less distance
Waiting for the return of your presence.