Following Me is a sacrifice
July 2, 2024

Lord, I went back.
What was I even thinking?
What can she offers me,
that I donât already have?
I donât feel safeÂ
I feel suspiciousÂ
Like nothing that comes out of her mouth,
Is trustworthy or even the truth.
Like she is making up excuses and blame everyone - rather than herself.
Like she canât even take responsibility for her wrongs and she doesnât understand my outburst, when I feel betrayed and unloved.
When she shows how she texts her friends.
When she lies and pretend that their secret never will be spelled.
How she acts all loyal and friendly,Â
but betrays everyone she once called friend.
Sheâs fake and the life weâre trying to make,
Is nothing but a contaminated lake.
Itâs like a game we play and I play along.
But deep down I donât want to play anymore.
Iâm tired of my acting,Â
I want to be honest,Â
I want to break free,
I want to scream til thereâs no air left inside of me.
But Iâm too afraid to face the consequences.
Iâm too scared to face her reaction.
Cause I know sheâd never accept.
Sheâll never respect me.
All she ever does is blame me.
I see myself being more and more trapped.
And I donât know how to end this treadmill that I donât seem to get off.
Iâm trying to think of solutions but every single one is tough.
Why am I afraid to speak my mind?
Why do I only think of runaways?
And not real goodbyes?
Iâm exhausted andÂ
Iâm slowly being suffocated.
Everyone elseâs needs goes before my own,
and nobody knows that Iâm torn.
Iâm torn inside and I desperately want to scream.
Lord, I know I screwed up.
Again and again and again.
But can You please help me out once more?
Lord, can You hear my desperate cry for a cure?
Itâs like she puts venom in my life core.
She tastes like poison,
and Iâm obsessed.
I want to break free, cause this is nonsense.
Can You please tell me: Itâs not too late?
God, Youâre The only one who knows my true fate
I hear Your voice,
like a whisper in the windÂ
Iâm steering at the view outside the window on second floor.
The weather is nice,
I see some rays of light passes through the clouds.
And the trees move from side to side.
Iâm in my favorite coffee shop.
âYou can choose when to stopâ
He starts:
âYou have a choice, my child.
I donât force myself upon you or anyone else,
but what youâre feeling now is emptiness deep down in your chest.
Like something is missing in your soul andÂ
you canât find true peace and deep rest at all.
My child, can you believe Me when I say:
I donât want you to suffer anymore?
Not even one more day.
Youâre feeling like someone robbed your heavenly desires away.
Youâre feeling like your true self withers.
Like youâre slowly dieing on the inside.
But those dreams I planted in your heart,
Is actually the calling I have over your life.
Itâs not just a dream.
Itâs your destiny.
I planted them there and you long to arrive your true destination.
They wonât just flutter.
They wonât perish into thin air.
My child - I know you.
Havenât I made that very clear?
Following Me is a sacrifice.
Youâre sacrificing your control,
and trust blindly on what you can not see.
Youâre sacrificing your own worldly desires
and choose to let down your life to be a follower of Me.
The struggle is a battlefield between the what you think you know and the unknown.
But the unknown will not become known to you, before you let go of what is keeping you from entering your mission.
Or do you still refuse to listen?
Walk away from what is trapping you in a cageÂ
My child, listen closelyÂ
I want your inner rage
Use it to our benefitÂ
Cause you donât knowÂ
whatâs on the other side of the page
I have already written your story
And I know how this all ends
So can you trust The Author who holds the book of your life in His hands?
The unknown is known to Me my precious daughterÂ
And you can not see and provent the futureÂ
no matter how much you want it to go your way
You have to trust that whatever happensÂ
I am for you,
And if I am for you, who is when against you?
Jezebels mission is to tempt you away from the calling I have over your life
But I know your heart and they never stood a chance my child
Donât forget I have the final sayÂ
And donât forget that I believe in youÂ
I believe in you way more than you believe in yourselfÂ
So my child - Rest a littleÂ
Cause itâs never too late to humble yourselfÂ
When you donât feel safe in your own mind,
Donât question if you have a personality disorder, my child.
Youâre supposed to feel unsafe in your own mind.
Cause your mind is limited and Iâm limitless.
Donât trust your thoughts,Â
trust My promises.
What youâll experience is Me removing and resetting every area where you used to seek safety and trust apart from Me.Â
No, you are not crazy.Â
Youâre becoming disconnected from what was,Â
and youâre entering what is.
And in your willingness to be emptied,Â
you will be refilled
Who am I?Â
Is a question you ask yourself often,
especially when you keep running back to what you used to know.
And you keep blaming yourself for not being strong.
Youâre asking the exact question,
I want you to ask.
Because, that means you are open for a new answer.
That means you refuse to accept your actions to be the definition of who you are.
Youâre not your actions.
Youâre who I say you are.
Youâre loved.
Youâre blessed.
Youâre My masterpiece of perfection.
My daughter, youâre My princess.
And Iâm so satisfied with all of My creations.
Youâre not weak,
when you run back to the things that once comforted you,
and made you feel safe,
cause I already knew that was going to happen.Â
I knew how many times you would end a relationship and then enter again.
And now over a year has passed since you made a decision to find your true inner self.
You started your healing journey early in 23.
Now, look how far youâve come My child!
Now, look how much you have grown!
Be proud of the work and the time youâve invested in.
Be proud of the progress.
You made it this far.
And one day you wonât run back to what use to satisfy.
Youâll stay in the cocoon waiting to be transformed.
My child, your wings is shaping,
Itâs taking form.
Youâve come so far.
Nothing is in vain.
Iâm near and soon youâll see everything clear.
My dear,
I love you!
To infinity and beyond!
And no evil will ever harm the chosen people of My heartâ

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