for your eyes only

i wrote this for your eyes only 
hold this one closely 
read each word slowly 
recently the bad days feel like they are never ending 
faking a smile but the happiness is only pretending 
where are my “friends” to hear me venting?
can the good days please start to show
never felt this low
every night crying into that same pillow
but that smile will soon be for real
and happiness is only what you will feel
the time is coming for you to heal
the universe has heard 
your depression sentence has been served 
you are finally going to get what you have always deserved 
the new you is coming you have not yet met her
have the belief that life will get better 
and when you get to where you want to be write your old self a letter 
tell her how proud you are of her for having hope
for saying no and putting down that rope
together you fixed what you thought was permanently broke