Forever Awaiting!

I'm asking lord how do you say goodbye to a true love you never got to meet? Because I ache knowing I'll never get to choose a pair of socks for your tiny little feet. The flicker of your heartbeat had me planning things to come, our cute Halloween t-shirt 'I didnt eat the pumpkin' baby bump. I sat in that room shattered talking to my tummy 'please precious little one be ok for mummy'. I don't know how to recover from this daunting feeling of never getting to see your face, when there's women with pregnant bellys and newborns all over the place. Curled up in the corner bed curtains all around, hoping to hear the doctor say that you'll be safe and sound. I already know that things are not right but I'm praying so hard to God 'please lord I know that I'm not perfect I'm not asking you for me, if you can do anything here then save my baby I plea. Next thing I know we're back in the scanning room and your little flicker has gone! Daddy's face it sank with pain both him and the nurse holding my hand filling up. But me I quietly questioned you the Lord 'do you know what you have took?'. Could there ever be a reason for a life being taken to soon? How do I even begin to tell the brothers when their still over the moon? Answer me please lord why did my third baby only ever get to touch my whom?