Song saved my life!

singing the song I sing when there's nobody here to hear me, because the lyrics I wrote I swear they almost killed me. 
I sang about way back when, when I tried to take my life when people looked right through me, there was no one by my side. I questioned every purpose and thought what's the fucking point? Popped every pill in the packet and said my holy grace. I remember begging 'please lord get me out of this shitty place'. Sitting there suicidal thinking there's no way back bullies got me good today they say my mums on crack. I broke down in the lords arms, he just listened like nobody had ever heard my voice. He sent me back with meaning one word residing in my head SING!!! I remember it was the only thing he said. 
I don't sing to be listened to I sing to hear myself, I sing for the little girl who didn't speak she kept the darkest to herself. I can sing of the pain and the hurt but it can't hurt me, I made a deal! Not even myself can destroy me. Back then it controlled me I couldn't speak my truth, today I'll sing about it, and you'll hear about it, and you'll swear that it's not you!
you took my voice away and the Lord he gave it back and now you have to live with yourself whilst listening to my rap. I don't sing to be listened to I sing to hear myself. I sing for the little girl because she didn't sing herself. I can't sing away those memories but I can change each and every verse, It's not a song if I don't sing it but this song is well rehearsed.