Forever Lost To Nothing

The nights and days they bleed together 
Seconds minutes hours 

 

It doesn't matter 

 

To me it's all the same 

 

It's whatever 

 

I just stare off in thin air 

 

A sstare that's so blank

 

See it in my face 

 

The lights aren't even on there's nobody there

 

I feel nothing

like there's no feeling there

towards anything 

 

It's not that I don't care

 

It's just that they're not there

 

There's Just like this type of such an indifference of nothing ness

in any type of way 

 

Theres this such just like distant 

 

A type of distant That's just so far removed

that to say it's so far away

would be way underestimated 

 

So much more than beyond so far gone 

 

That the thoughts that should be there theyre not 

 

And there's this complete and utter detachment 

 

You could see it on me

this such a no type of life left

but much more less than lifeless itself type of look

 

No light in my eyes

You could tell they said

something inside was dead  

 

I could hear her talking 

 

Just I never knew what sh was saying 

 

And I was just unresponsive 

 

It's been this way for I don't know how many day now 

 

I just stare off into space 

 

I lost any and every kind of perception of time in every kind of way 

 

Nights and days like I said they bleed together

 

Seconds minutes hours 

 

It didn't matter

 

The time dilation 

 

Had me staring into nothingness for hours and hours 

 

And I only thought it was a couple minutes 

 

I'm not sure I was even thinking any thoughts 

 

I just wasn't there 

 

I was just lost l

ike this was atype of lost 

 

That lost is all there is l

ost like youll never come back again

 

Lost like lost is all you'll ever feel 

 

Lost as in you'll never feel nothing else l

ost as if lost had lost itself 

 

And I'd just stare into jothingness 

 

And 

 

I'll never know me again 

 

And I'd love to die again

 

To be that kinda of dead

is way far worse than death 

 

And this is all there is 

 

I'm not me all sense of self is gone

IM nothing 

 

And I just stare no thought 

 

Nothing at all

 

Just gone

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