This awful feeling.

Originally wrote 30th January 2012.
a poem wrote about loss of a best friend in animal form. 

The day I left to go to an ordinary, boring day,
i come back to find during the day I lost a piece of my heart,
Small as this creature maybe,
But she was certainly family to me,
Playing around is all we used to do,
until we got old and the playing around did to,
I remember the night before she went to face her threatening day,
I kissed her and said "baby, you will be okay."
but how was I meant to know that day she was going to go?!,
well i suppose somewhere deep down, somewhere, just somewhere,
a part of me shouted out, its the last day tomorrow,
and the way she looked at me with all that sorrow,
as in to say we both really know, that i am going to go,
but I didn't believe it, Oh no!
So now she has gone,
Hopefully well and playing again,
One day I shall meet her and the others once more,
and we can all be playing like we did once before,
Rest in heaven I may say and You will never be forgotten, NEVER! once more I say