Forgive me

I hear voices 
I see things that's not there 
I feel everyones emotions 
I don't fit in 
my chest hurts before someone dies 
the voice I hear sounds like my family
I am afraid to love anybody
I brake up with them before they have a chance to hurt me 
I don't know who I am supposed to be 
I'm only 19 and been through a lot 
I'm close off 
hiding in shadows
hiding behind masks 
please forgive me for the way I am 
I don't trust easily 
how can I when my own family gives me a reason to not trust 
please forgive me for the harsh words I say 
forget that I'm glass and avoid walking around me 
I'm only human 
I'm sorry for the way I treat you at times