Forgive Me

Before I take these pills and release them in my system
Somebody should hear my story, somebody should really listen
I'm a walking piece of shame
Not greatness, pride, or glory.
I'm just a lonely loner who's beyond unworthy.
Only because the people who matters the most ignore me.
Exaggerating? I wish.
But there's definitely not a maybe.
I think I'm going crazy.
Am I losing my mind?
I just really need help
Before my life runs out of time.
I've been hell of depressed lately.
I have no one to confide in, because I get put down on the daily.
Parents ask questions, but there's no problem I tell them that I'm Gravy,
Then they walk away with no clue of knowing I was faking.
I feel as though I'm a waste.
Ask no question just read my face.
No one cares, so I surely won't...
Hoping and praying they'd miss me, but i know for a fact they won't.
Every night I fall asleep crying, 
Strong on the out but on the inside I'm just dying.
Looking at the flames of hell, because I'm about to dive in,
Forgive me Father God and my Dear Lord...
I'm just tired of trying.