Fourteen Feelings

Fourteen years ago to the day.
My life was changed in such a way.
I cry a lot and I'm often sad.
By trying to express my feelings, it makes me mad!
My heartaches and my pressure rises.
I can't take it I hate surprises.
I keep my thoughts bottled up and their sometimes the deranged.
I hate new people, they think I'm strange.
I'm always afraid of being emotional and careless.
Although I portray myself to be fearless.
Fourteen years of these feelings I'm slowly going insane.
A lot of times I look back and wonder am I to blame?
What did I do to deserve such pain and hurt?
Why are my parents the ones in the dirt?
My heart, my soul, and my mind were split.
I can't take it, I give up!!!
I hate this shit!!!

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Strong emotions here and this write keeps one on the edge of the seat. You can see that this is very personal and that there is a lot of anger for the place they have been put in. You here it said all the time, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and that is true. When you are going through this is hurts a lot, but you can't go back and change anything so you have to go on. You will find the waqy and you will be better for it! Good luck in the contest, but more so in life. The Shaker
Thanks Shaker, those words of encouragement really mean a lot to me. Yes this poem is very special to me and it means the world to me! I try to take my emotions and put them in words on paper to help relieve the stress of them being inside my head interfering with my everyday living. They passed away 1 week before thanksgiving and then 3 more holidays follow right after (my birthday included) so the holiday time always hits me hard but I am trying to live on and become a better person because of this. Thanks for your support I really appreciate it
Brittany
Really enjoyed this piece ms brittany. I think i touched you when you thought of it and i can really feel the emotion that you were putting out when you wrote it. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT. Please continue to write!!!!!
John
Magnificent......Speechless
@ john thank you very much for your support it means the world to me that you like my work, I really put a lot of thought and effort into it!!
@Krystal thanks for your kind words of encouragement!!!! I am deeply moved by the LOVE!!