Full Custody

Looking back at the process You brought me through 
I suddenly realized how lost I really felt
I had so many emotional outbursts 
I felt so chaotic and out of time and space
I felt like a Godzilla 
Rage, calm, glad, sad
I felt it was an endless ride of an emotional roller coaster 
And I didn’t had any control whatsoever 

Lord, You have been so faithful to me
Looking back I remember my dangerously prayers to You
I prayed If You would take over,
clean up my mess 
and uproot every weed that was not supposed to grow 
I gave You permission to take control 
I gave You the authority to be in charge 
And I haven’t regretted it since I’ve asked
Now that I’m transformed 
I feel so blessed 
I feel so at rest 
Thank you, God
You fulfilled my deepest request 

I was blessed in my tantrums 
And as You say in your word
“Blessed are those who have not yet seen but still choose to believe in Me”

I was in good hands all along
You’d make sure of that
You said: 
My child 
You’re not your emotions 
What’s unknown is becoming known to you 
I will constantly reveal something in your tantrum’s
Tantrums expose your lack of faith and 
I will reveal your immaturity or maturity in Me
I do this intentionally to teach you something 
or to place you in a state of rest
I will continue to reveal that in every passing life experience you will experience in this life 
I will make you ask yourself 
If the tantrums makes us closer
or if where’s something blocking our connection
I reveal to make you grow and to develop 
To make you strong in Me 

When you’re strong In Me, every obstacle that used to weigh you down falls beneath your feet
It won’t have power over you 
Cause you won’t rely on yourself
You won’t rely on your ability to navigate
You will rely only on me 
Because you know who’s in charge of ever obstacle you may face 
You know you can rest
You know you are blessed 
Because whatever happens will fall upon me
You know you’re My child and that I have full custody