Get Away

When she doesn’t understand but she thinks she does when she makes do things just because. sometimes I just wish I could just get away sometimes I wonder if she would be ok? would she even understand why I left this house would she even care would this news even rouse a suspicion or worry that she should probably hurry would anything change if I left and came back and I’m not talking about the punishment in which I lack. Does she even ever think that it may be hard to be the perfect student and having a good report card. the pressure she puts is hurting my shoulders but her anger is just like rolling boulders. She makes you feel like a complete screw up and all my retaliations I have to just chew up. I don’t understand what exactly she sees when I come home with my B’s and C’s. I feel like some message just won't go through and there are things that I was willing to do. I tried and I tried to get her attention starving myself is just one thing I’ll mention. I wish she would just realize her baby hurt but instead she’s off buying my little brother shirts. I don't even know where this all comes from but I guess I wasn't done with my glum.