That Girl

Another year over, a new one beginning.

What happened to that girl I used to be?

So optimistic, so happy.

Just young and carefree.

That girl liked boys and boys liked her.

She shared midnight phone calls, whispering, “I love you,”

And in that moment, it was true.

That girl kissed and told.

That boy kissed and forgot, and their “love” went cold.

Now I don’t trust, won’t get close

‘Cause it’s better to be alone than risk being hurt.

That girl believed in magic.

Her eyes were glitter, so sparkly and kind.

Now my eyes stay gray, and it feels like I’m losing my mind.

I’ve been lonely, cheated on, dumped, and used.

Then I turned around and did the same things too.

Where did my dignity go?

Did it fall like the snow, cold and dark?

Will I ever fix these cracks I made in that girl’s heart?