girls

By now ive come to terms
That ill never have a wife
That special lady at home
That improves my way of life
Cuz everybody leaves me
And i dont know why
Its like for a few short seconds
They thought i was Mr. Right
Then one day they wake up
And realize they were wrong
So they pack up and walk out
As im acting like im strong
Strong to handle
The situation that im put in
But in all actuality
The truth is that im breaking
Breaking at the joints
Especially the knees
I try to keep them oiled
But they are growing weak
Tired of holding
All this weight on my shoulders
With each one that leaves
I grow a little colder
My heart is in pieces
And no glue can fix it
They each took a part
And they plan on keeping it
My mind is growing old
As fast as it runs
A million miles an hour
And this is no fun
Everyday i wake up
With a weight on my chest
Felling like i just went
Twelve rounds with the best
Should i quit and give up
And stop looking for love
Or should i close myself off
And forget who i was
These girls have made me a monster
Afraid to see himself
So he avoids all mirrors and cameras
And puts his dreams on the shelf
All thats left are nightmares
They are chasing me to death
Afraid to close my eyes
And scared to take a breath
I cant ever sleep
So i walk around this town
Thinking about my life
And writing me felings down
So if your looking for me
You can find me in the street
With my headphones blaring
Afraid to go to sleep
Cuz all i have are bad dreams
And tey always feel so real
Im satarting to hate my life
So this is how i deal
I tak all my emotions
And bottle them away
Lock them bitches up
Until the day that i can say
That i am happy
With the life ive chosen to live
The roads and paths im taking
Dont hav much more to give
We al make mistakes
And we leave them in the past
But why do my mistakes
Have to bite me in the ass
Every girl ive been with
I fell hard and fast
Claiming it was forever
But it just didnt last
I dont understand
What it is i do so bad
That makes them all run back
To what they used to have
The ones they ran away from
Cuz they just had to get out
But then they meet me
And they know without a doubt
That the feelings they had for them
Well they are just too tough
Being treated like a queen
I guess isnt enough
So they go back to the shit
The cheaters and drug abusers
The same ones that hit them
And to me they called losers
I treat them with respect
And never lay a finger on them
So if thats what they want
Then fuck it then they can have them
I was raised to defend women
And always have their back
So i guess this generation
Just got way out of whack
With boyfriends disrespecting
And taking advantage of what they have
Treating women like shit
Which is why they need smacked