Glass bones paper skin

Glass bones paper skin 
Hurt me and I feel it deep within 
It amazes me how you still seem not to care 
It doesn't seem fair 
But that's the way life is 
It cuts deep 
Like the way water always seems to seep 
Behind my anger you fail to see
There's another side of me 
Sometimes there is to much bundled up inside 
I just want to be calm like the composed tide 
But instead I break down the walls 
And I can't seem to stand, so I fall 
I feel so lonely 
And that is the main thing 
That keeps me so distant from others 
Im afraid of connecting 
Like a leaf to the gutters 
Eventually the leafs fly away 
Leaving it's past companion to stay 
Hopes and dreams 
Never to be achieved
I want things to not be as they seam 
Unless I believe that they can happen 
But the only thing I've been doing is napping
I need to recognize what I want
And stop doing things like I'm a runt
 There is so much motivation lacking 
But I know what I want 
I want to be packing
I want to see this beautiful earth
Maybe find a beach to surf 
Find the things it has to offer 
Put my hands in the sand, to feel how it's more softer
Then the cold hearts of these cruel people living 
They take what they could be giving 
But in reality we will never be pleased 
It's always that voice in our heads that's such a tease