Glorious Numbness

Welcome to the wreckage of me
languishing beneath
this deafening monotony

My life has become nothing
but a blaring white noise symphony

An unrelenting static blasting cacophony
playing out as background filler
to drown out the silence
where all my past life regrets

have taken up permanent residence

And yet
things could always be worse
as I soothe my self induced pain
with trite time tested cliches

Counting my blessings
while we gather ye fucking rosebuds

Why the Hell would I want to do that
when this languishing self pity
keeps me toasty warm
with all my fellow
downtrodden soul mates
huddled together
at the Woe Is Me tavern?

Pumping up the frivolity
as the jukebox howls
much needed insulation

Now the drinks flow freely

Her perfume ignites
my raging testosterone
for yet another round
of shared carnal distraction
wrapped in sheets sweat stained

Morning comes as it always does
as we put away our toys
to the all too stagnant
back to the grind refrain

Pain is our partner beast
to be temporarily restrained
even if living numb
is the only way