Grandma

It's been 2 months without you,
2 months without having my best friend,
I miss you grandma,
 wish I didn't fall asleep the last time I saw you alive.
I'm sorry. 
 still haven't cried In Front of mom.
it Hurts so much more since your funeral is in week.
I don't want to say goodbye,
just wanting to be able to hug and talk to you 
I haven't cried much lately 
But I still wake up with a weight on my heart.
still laying in bed having physical pain in my chest.
You were doing so well 
you were talking and walk 
then few days later your gone,
I don't want to say goodbye.