Love ?

I do love him 
I want to spend the rest of my life with him
But I am so fucking scared 
I think back 
Do I deserve love 
Can I he actually accept me 
He accepted the person I am now
But how about my past the one that created this me
I have tried to tell him
But it's in the past as he says 
Why worry it's over 
But it still hunts me 
It still hurts 
Just because it already happened 
Doesn't mean it stopped hurting 
Maybe if I can't open up about my past I shouldn't open up my future to him