Grandma's final act

Within these walls of loneliness my thoughts run free

I think of all the family I lost and what that's done to me

Her last days I wanted,couldn't,and should've changed my ways 

Who would've known I'd be now paying for that day

If I only knew what, and how she felt inside

I could've been the one to save her life

My grandma was my confider

There will be no other like her

She could have not known

of her emptiness feels,leaving me so

I needed,love and miss her

Holding me I wish she were

so many things left unclear

Since she's been gone , my heart and wounded soul bleeds

too heal me, it is her that I need

But I must accept she's gone

For my grandma would need, and want me to move on

I have to forgive,and remain strong

Although I know for a fact

My life will and is different because of my grandma's final act.