grasping humanity

you reach out to the light
as its something you cant have
you try to grasp it between your shaking fingers
never wanting to let go
for its the only warmth you can feel
its the only thing that gives you meaning
but you know in the end its not yours
you wanted it for its temporary bliss
so you could pretend you're alive
so you can be normal
but all it gave you was permenant blisters
as it seeped right back out of your life
leaving you cold and alone
yet you could still feel the throbing pain of what once was
but will never be
again