Growing Pains

I feel like some times God goes and makes me stand in a corner and stare at the wall 
As if he is putting me in timeout saying that I need to slow  downand reflect on life before I wipeout 
I get caught up with life so easily I forget to give him my praise 
Lord knows if it wasn't for him I would still have many of my childish ways 
I dream and I dream.. Then some nights I forget what sleep is like I'm having a out of body experience 
While all my thoughts and feelings are being projected out into the atmosphere 
Lord you said you would never leave me nor forsake Even when the enemy wants to break me 
I can still hear your silent whispers in the wind and your gentle knocks at my souls door 
Asking are you ready? Are you ready ? Are you ready to let me fully come in. 
I'm hesitant because what's so special about me? How can be of any use to you? 
He doesn't give me the exact answer instead he just gives me unconditional love like a father and pats me on the head and says it's ok you are still learning 
I know life still has yearning to do more but I get nervous. Sometimes when Im listening to a sermon I can't even sit still through the service 
Because I know that God is talking directly too me 
Look no further he's bring blessing and opportunities 
But can I meet your expectations
I fall short so much sometimes I feel like I'm at summit of your grace yet you open a new path for me to follow 
I hope these words don't seem to hollow 
I know that this body and soul are borrowed 
When I leave this earth I want to make sure that they mark my casket return to sender.