Happy

What if... yes I'm a girl or am I?
I say I'm a girl
But when you tell me put on a dress put on a tight skirt I dont wanna when you tell me put on makeup but not to much or that's selling yourself out but if you dont wear enough makeup your ugly and not enough and people dont want you then
They tell you eat a salad you look fat
Then they say eat a burger your to skinny and they say you have a eating disorder went they tell you pull your belt tighter it makes your waist skinny when they tell you get a boyfriend quick but dont be desperate well guess what maybe I dont wanna be a girl maybe i dont want a boyfriend... but I do but maybe I want a girlfriend but I like boys but if you have no gender I'm not gonna care if your yourself I'm not gonna care about your gender it's not what you are its who you are it's about your personality what if inside i dont feel like a girl but I'm not a boy...
I'm not trans idk what i am inside i feel like a girl but I feel like a boy but I dont feel like either idk what I am I wanna be a girl but only sometimes... I wanna have other girls say look how cute he is he looks like a character from my favourite movie but I want guys to look at me and say wow look how beautiful she is I just I wanna be what I am I dont want to be expected to eat salads and wear makeup I dont wanna wear the skirts I dont wanna wear the dresses if I feel like wearing a skirt its gonna be because I want to it's going to look how I want so it represents me and my personality because I wanna be me because I am me not my clothes so why is it like this why are women being told that they have to dress like this were not perfect perfect doesn't exist you cant tell me to be perfect that would be asking the impossible because perfect is not a thing we all have something wrong with us people think theres two genders but theres not theres alot more you like who you like whether that be two genders, all genders, the opposite gender, or no genders it doesn't matter as long as your happy but dont say that being straight is normal and being gay isnt or that gays are wierd because if you said that you would be wrong nobody's normal we are all wierd or different in our own ways and we cant stop that because nobody's perfect but at the same time were all perfect but in our own way and I know you've heard that before but it's true I'm perfect but I'm not your perfect but your not so choose to see the perfect part of people but dont ignore the wierd parts those are always the best parts all you need to worry about is being happy. So am I a girl or a boy Idk but I'll find out soon enough. Just remember to be happy at all times no matter what just be happy.