The Hardest Thing

 March.1.1999
 Trisha Barrek Hopkins

The hardest thing that comes to mind
Is I'm in a dream that will never come true
Your conversational mix of "All I Have To Give" is so kind
Who ever that song belongs to only you know
It's such a sweet and sincere song
My feeling fior you I can never get a chance to show
This song to me I wish belong

How could I be 
So stupid to think
That you'd actually want me
You have all these fans 
I wouldn't get a look not even a blink
I've listened to the lyrics of this master piece
You and the guys made
Your voice so gentle yet still gives me a chill
And goes through my bones
When you're no longer a hit in my heart you won't fade
All my life guys hurt me and turned my heart to stone

When I saw you and heard you sing
I thought my prayers where answered from above
The only bad thing is that sweetest kiss
You can never bring
If I tried to bring you my  heart your fans would push and shove
And anyway you wouldn't notice me standing there
No one does anyway
Sometimes I feel no one will ever care
I know no one wants me to stay
My heart they don't give me a chance to share

Then I heard your song that brightened up my day
But then I realized who am I kidding 
I would never beable to stand by your side
Or the things in my mind 
I wouldn't beable to get the chance to say
It's like when I thought my heart got hopes
It realized and again cried
All my life I tried to find the perfect one
And when I fially did 
He ends up famous and far from my reach
My heart tells me ...it you won
My minds tells me...forget about him
You'll only get hurt and cry another tear
Your heart I hope one day to win
Not having anyone...A man to call my own
Or a friend is my fear

All my life I've always had to repair a broken heart
Not wanting to live
Trying to keep myself from falling apart
A chance... to me no one will want to give

The hardest thing is I don't know if I can survive
Everyone shows they don't want me around
Not seeing tomorrow somedays I wish I thrive
My heart my pain my broken heart...life 
Not a single soul has yet found

I guess the hardest thing for me to do
Is to ask for only your helping hand
It's like no one knew
People didn't even bother to see me on my own two feet
I can barely stand
Hopefully one day you and I can meet

So until then I shall wait
I'm not going to hold my breath I might die
My life I'll try not to hate
And at night when I go to sleep I'll try not to cry
I really wish God would send my soul mate
Yes I admit this will be the hardest thing to try

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