Hate or Love?

I hate being with you 
'cause I'm feeling a lot of things 
I don't want to feel.
I feel...
Sadness 
Angry
Fear. 

But I also feel..
Happiness 
Excitement 
Joy 
Affection and Admiration.

What are those feelings? Why am I feeling like that? I have lots of unanswered questions. I'm scared of what will happen because of those feelings. I'm feeling lost and free when I'm with you, I hate it 'cause I've never felt like that.