Numb

The silence weighs heavy against my chest 
While my thoughts are nothing more than a swirl 
Like the leaves of autumn 
Caught in a restless wind. 
I am here, 
But I am not present. 
I am a living body, 
But all is numb. 
My heart aches, 
Yearning for light and just a sliver of hope.
I have been drowning in my own misery
Unable to get to safety, 
Yet no one has noticed.
Numbness;
It is a pain that is there, 
But also missing. 
This feeling is found nowhere,
Yet I feel it everywhere.