Haunted by me.

If I had a forgiving heart 
it would go out to the woman
who will take my place 
when I am done with you.

She will need a trained
paramedic on your first date.
To extract the glass shards 
of me I have left in you.

You will talk of me 
so much the sound of
my name will fire 
darts into her chest.

In quieter intimate moments
she will see the hollow of your neck 
your full soft lips 
your muscular body.
And she will weep 
at the thoughts of
how I may have touched you.

She will do for you 
the things I did to you.
She will make promises 
of things I could never do.

You will ease her mind
telling her of my drinking
my infidelity and violence.

She will say honey 
she was a monster
you deserve me so much more.
And she will be right.

But my ghost will wail 
in her dark moonless nights.
She will notice your fear of darkness.
The way you look under the bed
and how you avoid 
any place we went to.

And deep in her heart
she will know
that every corner of you.
is haunted by me.